Not the lasting image I wanted to leave.
I'll probably make it live again as soon as I start writing more letters again. It's always a New Year's resolution write more letters but, of course, it only lasts so many weeks.
As I thought about what I would want to tell myself when I stated blogging I kept thinking about something I wrote during a challenge during the first Love-A-Thon three years ago:
I'm still learning anyway. Still learning that I really need to put myself out there, still learning to devote myself to being more consistent with my postings, still learning that I do not need Dr Pepper to assist me when I write.
That was me after blogging 10 months.
Dear 21 year old new blogger, or Me. Whatever you prefer:
I honestly can't say what is going through your mind with this blog. Sorry to say that that is not going to change.
I'm starting to think we'll never know what goes though our mind when we do anything. If anyone asks; your an artist you don't have to explain yourself.
Hell you don't have to explain yourself period!
In one of your first post you said that you're not sure when you'll feel like this blog is ready. Well, I hate to tell you this but either that moment past and you didn't even realize it happened or almost three years later it still hasn't happened.
I think it has though. I just didn't see it.
I wasn't exactly sitting around waiting.
You're blogging for you I remember that much, and I also remember the promise of not sugar coating anything. Warning: for some odd reason the negative reviews you write are more likely to be found by the author than any positive.
But it'll end well. Thankfully we've yet to have any disputes with authors or bloggers.
You will say some things that will cause people to maybe think you are implying something you're not or have them respond in a way that makes you think they're trying to start something.
But again you're blogging for you, and when you revisit the things you've written you'll find them pretty funny.
Honestly the things that come out of our mind.
It'll take almost three years for you to start all the ideas you're thinking of but you get there. And you'll still be a small blogger in a big pond, but that's alright. You don't need to be a big fish, just take what you've gotten and know that the only way to go is up.
Take it at whatever pace you want, there's no real need to hurry.
A wiser sounding but not as advance 24 year old you.
PS you do fine without Dr Pepper.